Just keep swimming....

I am still distraught about my Missy.

To make matters worse, her ashes, which I was supposed to have within 2-4 weeks, have not been returned to me, and it has been just over 6 weeks now. This is because THEY LOST HER BODY.
I am freaked out. I can't even function.

I just found out I have osteoarthritis in both hands. The surgery I had a year ago today may well have been unnecessary.

I got a couple other really scary diagnosis but I am not ready to go there yet. I just can't.

My psyche is really fragile right now

There's 7 feet of snow outside and I am trapped in my house. It sucks. Nobody gives a shit if I am alive or if I have heat, electricity, or food, water, insulin....

I can't even...

Missy died a week ago.
She was fine. We were playing. Then, she was just.. gone.
My little headbutter, My princess. The mamacat, Gone.

The story is here:

 gofund.me/Missykins

I have had 7 surgeries in the past 12 months, and as of last night, I may be losing my home come May 1st, so now, more than ever, I really need help. I absolutely hate that I need help, but I do.

I also have things on eBay. I'm doing my best. As always, there is a Paypal donation button on the top (or bottom, I don't remember) of the page.