Sunday, March 25, 2012

SO sick of being sick.

So the previously mentioned pneumonia never really fully went away.
I am still suffering now, but definitely more mobile... probably TOO mobile right now... I think I walked at LEAST 40 miles this week, and still had a boatload of doctor appointments.

So the other night, I went to cook something in the oven for the first time since I moved in. I set it to preheat, (empty) and less than 10 minutes later, the alarm was going off. There didn't seem to be much/any smoke, but there was a definite smell, so I don't know if it was the smoke or the carbon monoxide detector.. i hope there IS a carbon monoxide detector... I went to open the windows to find that they are apparently painted shut (the kitchen ones) I went to open the middle room ones and the top of one fell down when I unlocked it and the other one seems to be the only one in the house that opens, but like ALL of them, there is some kind of fixture on it that makes it only open about 4 inches. This means that, in the event of a fire, unless I physically BREAK a window, I have ONE exit and one exit only- through the kitchen door.

Tonight, I noticed that the middle yard-facing window in my bedroom was cracked, and since it got cold again, I went to close it, and the top fell down. I can't reach high enough to get it to close all the way, and the lock seems to be busted.
I thought I was freezing all this time because of pneumonia. It may well be that I got and kept the pneumonia because the freaking windows have been open since before I moved in and I didn't know it because I was (am) so sick.
I had the thermostat turned all the way down for the past few days, but since it got cold again, I turned it on, and now the house smells.
The hose in the kitchen sink does not come out of its holster thingy, and also fills up when I try to do dishes (this happened the first time I ever turned the faucet on, so its not like I had something stuck in there)

The shower doesn't even get all that hot. It gets warm enough to not freeze- that's about it.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to come across as rude and/or accusatory to the landlady, but I also need to be safe.

In other news, I saw the kidney doc the other day and he said that my kidney function is stable. Not better, but not worse. I'll take what I can get. He also says that he doesn't believe the scale that says I have gained weight. He says I am definitely smaller and he can tell I have been exercising.

I am going in on Monday to meet with a rep about insulin pumps and to be put on a saline pump to see if I can handle it before making my decision about it. My insurance does not and will not cover the tube-less pump, as it is not considered a "sustainable device" and I am really nervous about having a tube hanging out of me, because, not for nothing, but I am a superklutz. We shall see, I guess. I don't really know what to think yet.

My stomach still hates me. I still haven't been eating much. I did have a gastric emptying exam this week so I need to get in touch with whomever is reviewing that so maybe I can get some less-vague answers this time.

Oh, and I was thrown (physicall) out of a cab last weekend and I knew I was hurt, but thought it was mostly from being scared and a little bruised. I was wrong. Something is seriously up with my back and I need to get it checked out.

My other chief concern of the moment is my voice. I fear I am losing it. I lost my voice for 7 years before. I can't do that again. I just can't. I need to sing. I have to. I need to be able to sing relatively WELL too. Something is happening to it and I don't even have the first clue on what kind of doctor I would need to see to address this situation, or if my insurance would cover such a doctor.

It is 5:25am and I have been up since 8am, and only got two hours of sleep before that. I should probably go try to pass out now.