Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Standstill?

I don't quite know what to do.
I had a swelling episode a couple of weeks ago.
It seems to have mostly gone away and have been an isolated incident in relation to being a female.
Still, it was scary and not "normal" at all.
I am on 80mg of Lasix a day and I am not losing any more weight, despite having been on this higher dose for quite some time now.
I can bend a little better and walk a little more.
I am pushing myself as best I can.
I am doing the very best I can to stay positive about as much as I can, but I still have an extra 70ish pounds on me that shouldn't be there and it makes me damn suicidal to see photos of all the progress I made before and then to look at me now and see what a blob I am and know I can't do a damn thing about it.
I go in to get my eyes looks at tomorrow, as I have more bleeding... oh joy.

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